My rating: 5 of 5 stars
Sometimes in our lives, amazing things happen to us, things that don't come often, things that stay with us forever, things that change us unexpectedly in an unexplainable way; for me it was reading The Coolest Way to Kill Yourself.
When I came across this book, I was obviously taken aback by its title, I thought, hold on a minute that can't be right, then I read the description and slowly things made sense, I immediately wanted to know more about this story, I was absolutely captivated so I purchased the book, however, nothing could have prepared me for the incredible journey which I was going to be transported into.
Nicholas Tanek has written this book for "Lynn", the love of his life who unfortunately passed away in 2012, but, in order to do that, he has to take us through a trip down memory lane from the first time they met, this may I add, is no easy task, Nicholas has to go back to the early 90's when he was only 16 years old, what starts as friendship soon develops into something else, in a time when drugs were an easy distraction and music was a vital ingredient the leads embark in a passionate love affair which would withstand the test of time, however, most of us readers have been through our teenage years, and we know that at this age every day represents a new adventure, external factors, and things beyond our control have an impact in our relationships, and at this time Nicholas and Lynn part ways.
I would like to think whereas Lynn's feelings towards Nicholas even as a young teenage girl were pretty much a given, for Nicholas at that time as a romantic, love came and went without consequence or true happiness, he is not afraid to share each and every one of his painful relationships for they each had an impact in the man he came to be, to each he gave his love but in reality not his heart, each lover is a stage, each is a learning curve, each is a piece in a puzzle forming a new identity that would kill his old self and replace him with a genuine personality, through it all he is not afraid to open up and talk about his insecurities, his addictions, his desires and his obsessions; For Lynn unfortunately, the journey wasn't without difficulty and Nicholas allows us to get a glimpse into her years as she fights a terrible illness, an abusive partner, a battle with addiction and ultimately the loss of her identity.
It's not common for destiny to offer us second chances, these very seldom come, very few of us have the opportunity to do things right, to correct mistakes and to love again, Nicholas and Lynn were given a precious gift by being able to find each other after many years apart, to love each other the honest and purest way, for Nicholas it was a realization of the greatest love he felt for Lynn and for her it was the satisfaction to finally being with her one true love, for both it was being with a person that knew and accepted the worst parts of each other, their darkest past but still loving each other with a ferocity few ever experience in a lifetime.
"Lynn and I felt thankful to have each other. The comfort was truly magical in the sense that we both felt that we would never be alone again. We felt that we would always feel the love of one another in our hearts. We were looking forward to our time together. We were looking forward to our lives together."
As I write this review listening to Roxy music playing "Mother of Pearl" in the background still feeling quite emotional, I am so thankful that life has given me the opportunity to have read this book, it has changed me in so many ways, it has taught me to live life to the fullest, and love with intensity, with purpose, I would like to say this story is of love lost and found only to lose it again, of many different types of love and passion, Nicholas wrote this story for a girl who once thought nobody would ever write about her, he does it with so much emotion and conviction, I am in awe of his accomplishment to overcome so many obstacles, to immortalize Lynn through the pages of this book and to do it in the coolest way.
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