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Christopher Allan Roberts thought he had a promising future; Captain of the football team with the promise of a scholarship to play for Alabama. His high school sweetheart and best friend for as long as he could remember, Amanda, by his side, and the love and support of his family. One night, one mistake changed everything. Chris moves to New York, adrift and alone. A walk one night brings him to the flashing lights, loud music and thrumming bodies at club Berlin. A flyer in the men’s room promises fame and fortune for anyone willing to go on camera and have sex, with another man. Money is money, and how hard could it be, right?
Christopher Allan Roberts becomes Kris Alen, All Cocks newest addition, a gay for pay porn star.
Lincoln Carter is honest with everyone in his life, including his family, about who he is and about his sexual preferences. Linc Larson, the openly bi-sexual gay porn star will do anything with anyone, which pretty much writes his ticket in a versatility charged industry. It’s not his sexuality that interferes with his personal life; it’s his inability to trust.
What Linc wants right now, more than anything, is the chance to do a scene with All Cocks newest acquisition, Kris Alen. Six foot two with Auburn hair, an exquisitely toned and inked up body, Kris Alen is sex personified. Linc doesn’t know if it’s the “I want the shiny new toy” aspect that calls to him, or the distant and wounded expression that haunts Kris’s eyes.
Linc figures out early on that Kris is only working the gay for pay angle that All Cocks brings to his bank account. Can a bi-sexual man with trust issues break down the barriers that Kris has built around himself and help Christopher overcome the painful past he is running from.
Gay for Pay is a gay for you story about two men that will have to come to terms with the mistakes they made in their past, if they want to stick around and have a chance at a future.
EXCERPT
~ Chapter 1 | Life, as he knows it ~
January 2015
It was an unusually cold winter in New York this year, one for the record books. Blizzard like storms had shut down roads, airports and schools alike. Chris wove his way through the crowded sidewalks that were busting at the seams with tourists, all but blind and numb. He didn’t want to spend another night flipping through channels, listless, tossing and turning on Michael’s couch. Braving the artic temperatures and the crowded New York streets seemed like a far better option when he left the house, leaving his best friend and his boyfriend alone for the night, instead of being the constant third wheel.
Chris kept his head down, his eyes only scanning his surroundings, making sure he didn’t bump into anyone or worse, walk into a street sign. He chuckled at the thought, he’d seen the video on TV a while back of a famous rapper walking right into a street sign while trying to avoid the paparazzi. Chris didn’t much care for the guy anyway, always rude to his fans and generally everyone around him, he thought it was karma and was certain even the street sign laughed that day.
Karma, that thought stopped him in his tracks. Chris tried hard not to think about the accident five years ago, the accident that took Amanda from him and alienated him from damn near everyone in his life. He lost his girlfriend, his family, most of his friends and his football scholarship in one fail swoop. The only person that stood by him through it all was his best friend, Michael.
Waking up in the hospital alone because no one you knew could bear to be in the same room with you. The trial that not only tore apart Chris’s once close knit family, but rocked their small Alabama town. Losing his dream of playing football for the NFL, partly because of his poor decision making abilities, and partly because of the permanent injury to his spine in the accident. While he remembered every event with striking clarity, nothing tore at his soul more than what he did to Amanda.
Michael and his boyfriend Max were the only shining light in Chris’s otherwise dark life. Michael left for college in New York not long after the trial, and convinced Chris to come with him. Chris quickly agreed knowing there was nothing left for him in Alabama. Truth be told, he didn’t really feel like he belonged anywhere, still convinced his life should have ended the night he killed his girlfriend. Michael was his strength, the brother he never had, and he helped Chris find some semblance of a life in New York.
Chris was drawn out of his miserable memories by the loud music shaking the windows of the building he was passing. Looking up, he was drawn closer to the building by the bright lights that flashed and matched the beat of the bass perfectly. The closer Chris got to the doors the louder the music got, and the lights were almost blinding. Oddly, once he entered the building the music became hypnotic, and the darkness would have enveloped the large space within if not for the pulsating light show coming from the middle of the room.
Slowly circling the room, he took in his surroundings. There were different sized cages circling the lights and the DJ in the middle of the room, cages that held nearly naked men in various stages of undress. They were dancing, kissing, groping and in one cage, Chris was certain they were fucking. As he came around behind the center stage he saw there were several chairs and couches lined up against a back wall, and there was a man between another man’s legs, head bobbing up and down keeping time with the beat of the music.
He stood frozen in place for a minute, staring at what was obviously a man giving another man head, right there out in the open. He wasn’t staring out of disgust, more disbelief. How was it, these men were so brazenly open about what they were doing, and the place wasn’t swarming with cops. And how was it Chris lived just a few miles away and had never noticed this place before. Michael and Max would be in heaven here, he thought.
Making his way over to where he saw a bar set up, Chris ordered rum and coke then turned and leaned back against the bar, just watching and taking it all in.
“Well hello there gorgeous! Haven’t seen you round these parts before.” A petite blonde had walked up to the bar next to Chris and was eyeing him like Chris usually eyed a steak.
Chris laughed out loud, “So gay men’s pick up lines are just as bad as us straight guys eh.” Chris smiled at the smaller man.
Chris thought he may have offended the little guy for a minute, but then he threw his head back and barked out a high pitched laugh, then straightened and smacked Chris harder than he would have thought possible on his much larger bicep. He mock flinched, “Ouch!” and grabbed his arm, still smiling though.
The little guy shoved his hand toward Chris’s chest and he took it before shaking. “Names Colby, and who says I’m gay?” he winked at Chris before turning toward the bar and ordering a Cosmo.
“That right there little man, that says you’re gay.” Chris laughed.
“Oh ha ha, and what is your beverage of choice Jolly? Jack and coke? Budweiser?” Colby was trying hard to come across as serious, Chris could tell, but the smile never left his eyes, so Chris knew he was messing with him.
“Close, Rum and coke. Jolly?”
“You know, the jolly green giant.” Colby winked at him again.
“Funny. Names Chris.” They both turned and watched the mass of bodies dancing, writhing, kissing and touching on the dance floor just in front of where they stood. Chris didn’t know what else to say, so he didn’t say anything. He kept stealing glances out of the corner of his eye at the man that stood next to him, Colby stood there with his head bobbing to the beat of the music, smiling and watching the scenery before him.
Just about the time the silence bordered on awkward, Colby nudged Chris’s arm with his elbow, “So,” Colby leaned closer to Chris, making sure he could hear him over the loud music. “Are you really straight? Or are you bi? OH, is it my lucky day and you are bi-curious?” Colby waggled his eyebrows.
Chris laughed at him, shaking his head. “Nope, sorry man, I’m as straight as a board. But don’t worry, I got no problem with the lifestyle, my best friend and his boyfriend live together so I’ve spent a lot of time around gay guys and couples. Doesn’t bother me in the least.”
Colby nodded his head as he tipped back the pink drink and took a large swig, the silence was creeping in on them once more, and then Colby nudged Chris’s shoulder again. “Can I tell you a secret?” Chris simply nodded. “My names not Colby, its Colton.”
“So you use a fake name just in case you don’t like a guy or something.” Chris asked.
“Or something.” Colby, no Colton said. “Gay boy 101 when you live in the big apple, never use your real name unless it’s family or someone you know you can trust.”
“And you think you can trust me?” Chris asked, attempting to leer at his new friend. Colton threw his head back and laughed again, but this time Chris dodged the swipe at his arm.
Colton frowned at Chris when he sat his empty glass on the bar and ordered a glass of water instead of another drink. “You driving?” he asked. Chris shook his head. “Then why the water?”
“I have a one drink rule, and before you ask, don’t. Let’s just say, alcohol and I have a history, an ugly one, so I consume in moderation when I drink.” Chris stared down at the smaller man, waiting to see what his reaction would be.
Colton just eyed him for a few seconds before smiling and shrugging his shoulders. “Ah, well, more for me then!”
Chris laughed at his new friend. After a few more rounds of water, cosmos and some pleasant conversation, Chris asked Colton where the bathrooms were and they headed off in that direction. More than once Chris had to hold Colton up, the cosmos working their magic, turning Colton’s legs to jelly. When Chris was washing his hands after, he noticed a stack of fliers sitting on the counter. Grabbing one he skimmed over it then turned to Colton, “What’s this place? Do you know?” he asked.
“Ah yes, All Cocks, the end all be all of gay porn.” Colton sort of sang the words instead of speaking them. “I thought about it once, its good money, but I have this fear of public speaking, so I don’t think I could even be on camera much less have sex on camera. Jesus, but the models on that site are H.O. double T… HOT!” Colton fanned himself with his hand and Chris just laughed.
Colton shook his hands out instead of drying them, and then ran his damp fingers through his hair, taming the unruly blonde locks. He continued to ramble on as he headed out of the restroom with Chris following behind, but not before grabbing a flyer and folding it, tucking it into his back pocket.
What inspired you to start writing?
A love of reading first turned into writing reviews, and then all the crazy ideas in my head starting taking shaping and forming stories, so I just went with it.
What advice would you give a new writer just starting out?
First, you have to have thick skin. There is always someone out there that is going to hate whatever you write with a blind raging passion. You have to take the good with the bad and pull up your big girl, or boy, panties and keep on trucking.
Second, don’t engage the crazy. There is going to be a reviewer that is so adament that your book is the worst piece of garbade ever written, this person will want to scream their opinion from the mountain tops, just let them. If you engage this person you will give them fuel to flame their crazy fire and all the other crazy will rally at their feet and turn you into the bad guy.
Third, remember where you started. A lot of Indie Authors get their starts on the backs of hard working reviewers, bloggers and blog tour companies. Then once they find a publisher or start selling thousands of books, they don’t have time for the little people anymore. Don’t go that way, remember the person that had to go without something so that they could spend the only $5 they had to get a copy of your book. Remember that blogger that ran a review and interview for you and boosted your sales 10%. Remember that small tour company that worked days and hours on end to set up your tour and put you on the map for as low as $75 in some cases.
Who is your favorite author and why?
I love so many amazing authors, and call a lot of them friend. One of my favorites is Morticia Knight. She’s an awesome writer and an even better person. She continues to crank out these amazing stories from Contemporary MM Romance, to Cops and Firemen stories and she is a name to be recognized in the MM BDSM genre. She will do anything for her fans, but she also does charity work. She was one of many authors that donated signed paperback copies of their works for my anual Autism Awareness auction back in April. Morticia actually donated 10 books! 2 series and 2 anthologies. Her books alone raised a little over $100.
How do you develop your plot and characters? Which comes first?
I have an outline of what I want to do before I start and as I write the story will sometimes take on a life of it’s own. With Opposites, I knew what world I was creating and what the basic plot of the story would be before I started. With that series I did a ton of research as well about elevation and climate changes, so that I would have that element of reality in the story. I think the plot comes first, then the characters, but then one can change the other along the way.
Tell us something about your newest release that is NOT in the blurb.
I’m creating my own mock gay porn website with the All Cocks stories. The books will center around this group of guys that work for the company, the owners of the site and their friends and family. This first installment, Gay for Pay, is just what the title says. A guy is down on his luck and turns to the online Gay porn industry for the money it can put in his wallet. But somewhere along the way he learns that this group of guys is like a family in a way, and he becomes part of that family. He may even find love in the last place, or person, he expected.
Are you working on anything at the present you would like to tell us about?
I’m just getting Gay for Pay ready for release so nothing else right this minute. But I will start work soon on Fame and Fortune, an All Cocks story. FF will be the story of Vincent, Andrew and Mattie, the powerful threesome that runs the All Cocks site.
What are you reading now?
The Tide of War by L.A. Witt. Another one of my favorite authors, she plots out some great stories and creates unbelievable worlds for her characters to live in.
How do you come up with the titles to your books? Before you start the story of sometime during the creation?
Both. I give every book a working title and sometimes it sticks, sometimes it changes. Opposites was a working title that I thought would change up until the very end when I decided the word had a particular meaning in the story so it was a good way to start the series. After that I decided that their had to be two identical letters in my titles so I can put them back to back...
The lineup for the Opposites series is
Opposites
Appearances
Maddness
Happiness ... with a novella in between each book
Gay for Pay was always going to be the title for this book I’m fixing to release, but the company name took a bit. I played with catchy titles for days, looking things up online and seeing they were taken. I’m an avid fan and viewer of the Cockyboys website (strictly for research purposes, promise!) so somewhere along the way I typed the name Allcocks and started using it at least while writing. The first person to read an early draft absolutely loved it, so I stretched it to All Cocks stories and bought the domain name!
Describe your writing space.
I have a desk set up in the corner of my bedroom with my laptop and pens, paper, trash can... things like that. Baby Groot sits with me and bounces while I type, I always have youtube open and playing one of my playlists. If it’s Sunday morning then I probably have a mimosa in my hand as well. The words always flow well when there is orange juice, bubbles and good music involved.
How many books have you written? Which is your favorite?
5 to date... Opposites, The Library an Opposites novella, Appearances, The Cellar an Opposites novella and Gay for Pay. I think this new one Gay for Pay was the most fun to write. I based it off of a conversation that I had with two gay porn stars, one straight and one bi. So it was a ton of fun to write this book and use these two people as the vision and voice of Chris/Kris and Linc.
Do you hear from your readers much? What do they say?
I do actually. I get messages on my author page asking why did this happen or oh I didn’t see that coming or when is the next Opposites book?! See next question...
I get a lot of love and support from my readers, even some constructive criticism that I have taken to heart and hopefully, made some better decisions about my writing.
What’s next for TM Smith?
Releasing Gay for Pay on July 1st 2015, then I’ll start work on Fame and Fortune and I hope for a September ish release. After that, yes, I’m going to start working on Maddness, the third book in the Opposites series.
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A military brat born and raised at Ft. Benning Georgia; Smith is an avid reader, reviewer and writer. She now calls Texas home from her small town on the outskirts of the DFW Metroplex. Most days you can find her curled up with her kindle and a good book alongside a glass of something aged and red or a steaming cup of coffee!
At 42 years young, she's decided to enter the next phase of her life by adding the title of "author" to her list of accomplishments that includes single mom of three disturbingly outspoken and decidedly different kids, one of which is Autistic. Smith is and outspoken advocate for Autism and equal rights for the LGBTQ community.
Her Opposites series is based outside the normal parameters of social acceptability, examining a 'what if'... What If to be gay or lesbian were the norm? What if to be straight labeled you as an Opposite and made YOU the Outkast? Most recently, Smith is working on a new series that is set within the wildly controversial world of online gay porn.
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